Tuesday, July 19, 2011

explore. dream. discover.

Lost: One girl’s passion and creative spark.
And, unfortunately, that girl is me.
As is surely evident by my lack of writing and Debbie Downer posts in the past, I have not been in the right state of mind to write as often as I would like. While I still think that life is great and I'm my happy-go-lucky self the majority of the time, I've got a heavy grey cloud hanging over my head and it's really been raining on my parade. So I’m taking a break from my blog. I need to focus my energy on other things in my life at the moment. I need to give myself some time to unravel the crazy web of 'what to do's?' that has made it's home in my head. Instead of fretting over fun and friendly posts, I've been dreading them. Instead of looking forward to blogging, I'm being bogged down. Instead of seeing all the positives, I'm focused on the negatives – and I'm tired of letting the negatives win. I want to make some changes in my life right now. I know I'm completely capable of more. I know that if I set my mind to it, I can get what I want. I know that if I truly listen to what is in my heart, it will lead me in the right direction. I'm determined, I'm ready and I need to let myself devote all my energy to the changes that are going to get me to where I want to be.

I know I’ll be back because, in the end, this is something that makes me happy. It makes me happy to know that I have a creative outlet. It makes me happy to know that there are so many amazing people out there. It makes me happy to know that even if I step away from this part of the world for a while, it will still be here when I'm ready to return. I hope to be back soon and be back and better than ever...as corny and cliché as that may be, it's the truth. I'm ready to really be me and I know that the me I'm going to be is better than the me I am right now. Mark Twain said it so wonderfully...
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did.
I don't want to be disappointed. I'm throwing off the bowlines and sailing away from the safe harbour.
And I will see you when my ship is back on course.

51 comments:

jacin {lovely little details} said...

i think we all go through these ebbs and flows and you are doing the best thing - taking a little break! you can do it, don't let your biggest critic (you) beat you down :)

Ren- Lady Of The Arts said...

best of lucky lady.

PoetessWug said...

WOW!...so many questions that are none of my business. So, I'll just say: I hope all goes well, and that you get back to a more happy 'you' soon!

Krystal said...

i'm hoping you have smooth sailing my dear...take care of yourself and don't forget about us! (i've been reading thoughts like these a lot lately, maybe it's in the air)

jeanette from everton terrace said...

Look forward to your return. I make a necklace that says "let go and fly" and it sounds like that's where you are now. Take the leap, I think you're going to soar :)

la petite coquine said...

Enjoy the time away-to center yourself, to find new inspiration and to smile. We'll all be here when you come back!

Kimia Kline said...

such a beautiful quote. and so true. even now as im still in my mid 20s im already regretting things i didnt do!

Erika Lee Sears said...

you can do it girl! first step is wanting change and second step is acting on it. :)

Ana Degenaar said...

What an exceptional post. I love your thoughts!

Kirsty said...

Good luck steering the ship.We all need it sometimes.

Klaudia B. said...

fantastic photos !

kisses,
Klaudia B.

Meghan said...

What a beautiful post. I hope you find what you're looking for!

Brandi {not your average ordinary} said...

Good luck on your journey. I understand how you feel. Sometimes I worry I don't have any real time to think and explore because I spend so much time on blogging. I'm still trying to find a solution. I hope you too find everything you need.

Kristin said...

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time! I hope what you're searching for is right around the corner!

Ren- Lady Of The Arts said...

just checking in- hope all is well!

Mo Pie, Please said...

I totally understand the way you're feeeling right now. Here's hoping you find that spark while you take your break! Hope all is well my friend!

Melissa Blake said...

i'm just seeing this now. I've been there. I think it's good that you're taking some time for you. Can't wait to see come back better than ever!

Crazy Shenanigans-JMO said...

Good luck on your journey! We'll be here when you get back!

Krysten @ After 'I Do' said...

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time lady! Good luck on your journey.

THE ALTERNATIVE WIFE said...

Good luck, sweetie and take care of yourself. Don't worry, it will all work out. And we'll be here for us if you need us and when you're ready to come back :) xoxo

Anna of IHOD said...

So sad to hear that my dear. I love your honesty and I hope you continue to write even if for yourself because you have a talent that is clear.
Wishing you peace and renewal!
<3
Anna

Rhiannon {Hey Gorg} said...

I just went through this myself, love. A break will do wonders for you and the best part is when you come back we will all be here waiting anxiously for your return :) Your happiness comes first, always! Remember that! xoxo

Elisa @ Globetrotting in Heels said...

I go through times like that too. Go, do, experience... we'll be here when you get back. Safe travels :-)

Classy Career Girl said...

Sorry about the heavy cloud:( Hope you get everything sorted out!

birdie to be said...

You have a lovely blog! I love your pics and your post. Chin up... I have felt the same way. You will bounce back :)

Krystal said...

p.s. i love that you know the king of the bongos song :)

Anna Elder said...

after reading your comment on my ira glass post and then reading this i'm just so glad that what i shared spoke to you. we all go through this...at least, i do. i hope that you find what you are looking for & things will fall into place. :)

Krysten @ After 'I Do' said...

Sigh. I feel you lady. I hope things start looking up soon.

iheartkiwi said...

Everyone needs a little break sometimes! Just being able to realize that is an incredible sign of maturity.

We'll be here when you get back!

Anna Elder said...

hey - i love the art of racing in the rain! it's such a sweet story. there's another one from a dog's view - a dog's purpose. check it out if you haven't.

S and O said...

I'm sure you'll figure it out.
You could make a bucket list ^_^
Xoxo
Sarah

wilybrunette said...

you do what you gotta do lady! we're all cheering you on. i know how it is to lose that spark, so go out and find it.

OneCraftyFox said...

I hope you soon find what you are looking for, sweetie, then come back and tell us all about it.

My life got turned upside down, literally from one day to the next, about 6 weeks ago. My blogging has been lagging, I am an emotional wreck, and I think I may be able to sympathize with you. If you ever need to chat, I am here.

xoxo Diana

Kallie, Happy Honey and Lark said...

I know exactly what you are feeling, to a T. I'm writing out that Twain quite and hanging it up on my desk at work.

Ashley Slater said...

hey! thanks for entering the giveaway! I wanted to say hello and let you know I am now following you back! I love new blog friends so I am excited to read all about you. From this post you seem like a very determined and independent young woman! I know you can make changes and achieve whatever you desire!

Hope to see you around!

Today's Gift said...

I hope your sailing is going well. Safe travels.

Samantha said...

I think we can all relate to this in one way or another or at least I can. Sometimes a break can do wonders.

Krystal said...

thanks for coming to say hi to meee!!! i miss your post!! but i hope all is going well?

Dancing Branflake said...

Well, I stop by and your gone. But that's okay because coming here was so worth it. I just love your honesty- sometimes I feel the same way, although I don't know what you're going through. But please find safety wherever you are. hugs!

Shannon of ** Happiness Is...** said...

Oh honey, chin up! Definitely focus on the positives and you'll forget the negatives. Sending you happy vibes across blogland :) xo

Krystal said...

hope you are doing well miss :)

nomadicbark said...

When are you coming back? I miss you and your posts!

Elisa @ Globetrotting in Heels said...

I absolutely agree with you, I am familiar with the quote you shared and it so resonates with me!

Go on, recharge, get back on track, find your way. If and when you are ready to come back, we'll be here.

Hogger and Co. said...

Miss you; hope all is well.
Wishing you a happy 2012!

Ren- Lady Of The Arts said...

Happy New Year Lady-

Camille said...

Have a good break! Sometimes it is so needed. I understand completely. I feel like I have a creative block every other month...and it's not fun, but reminds me to step back and breathe.

looking forward to seeing you when you return!

cheers.

accidentally, kle said...

Just wanted to leave a note to say I hope you're well, and that you'll be back one day soon! x

Nicole Marie said...

Wishing you luck.

www.nmephotoblog.blogspot.com

Krystal said...

thank you for your congrats :) :) i hope you get this!

Kelly said...

We all have these moments. I hope you get your "ship back on course". Enjoy the journey! Glad I can see follow you on Instagram (@kellytiramisu)

S❥r❥h said...

You are so right, thanks for the encouragement :)
<3 Sarah
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